I let you in and it was confusing for the both of us.
Guess you didn’t expect me to say yes so

you hesitated for a while.
I knew all of what that meant.
Your words were never true.
You lying fuck.

There we stood,
staring into each others emptiness.
I couldn’t look at you anymore without tearing apart.

So I ran, before you could see me cry.
You don’t deserve my tears.

I’ve never opened up so fearlessly and fast.
Also never shut down so easily.
We weren’t meant to be
But,
still with you I was everything I ever wished to be:
Loving and kind.
Not shutting down, not even for a while.